A Timothy Green Kind of Day

Today is SUCH a beautiful day! This morning I walked to school, and I was not in a happy place, my mind was all clouded and swirling with negative thoughts. I actually felt like I was physically struggling to enjoy the sun and birds tweeting. But then, in walking, breathing, trying to look at the world with eyes of wonder, the negative swirl began to dissipate. Later, I read and relaxed, listened to some music and took another walk and my! What a difference! If you've ever seen the movie, The Odd Life of Timothy Green, then you'll know what I'm talking about when I say I wanted to pull a Timothy Green and just stand with my arms outstretched and soak up life. I wanted to spin in a field and sing. It's amazing what some fresh and sun can do!

School

Today is Thursday of the first week back to classes after two months on practicum. This week, I am thankful that the first four days have been easy-going and not too pressured. I'm glad to have had some time to rest and to catch up with friends whom I haven't seen in a while. And while I know that this week is probably the calm before the storm, I am determined to be thankful for what it is right now, in this moment, rather than allowing my own thoughts about the future ruin the present.

Commitment

I've been thinking a lot about change lately and about where I want to be in the next year or so. It's a bit tricky because in order to make a change in a positive (or any) direction, you have to know (or at least have an inkling) of the end result that you're looking for. You need to have a goal. As I've been thinking about change, I've been realizing that I don't really have any concrete goals at the moment, and I think that it really holds me back in a lot of ways. I think too, that I'm afraid to make a goal because that means I have to stick to it, to work hard at it, and actually commit to that change. But, I've also been reading a lot of different sources that have been telling me that change is good, that it feels so awesome to achieve your goals, to plow forward and not let your life be led by fear. In order for change, real change, to happen, you've got to commit.